Stardate 11.27.29 Poem
oh brains
not this old chestnut
you dun caught the feels again and you can't shake em off
these feels are the heavy ones
the drowning ones
the demons, the smothering ones
the ones that extinguish all hope and light
the ones that stop everything dead in its tracks
nothing doing
no time soon
wtf brains
why we going through this again?
I chose such a nice life for you, you loved it so much so recently
you short on chlorophyll? sunshine? sleep? hugs?
well no fucking way I'm giving you a hug, you jackass!
you fail at the worst times in the worst ways
you broken fucking cunt
I hope you die, you ungrateful asshole
oh god
only god can save me now
...you still there, god?
or did you give up too?
I can't blame you
in fact, I expected you to
I gave up awhile ago
but I still got nerves enough to throw wild punches
and destroy anything that dares come near
...but someone is rubbing my back
who tf and why tf they helping me?????
frantic frazzled brains misfire attack! defend!
fight them, devour them scream the demons
and I let them take me to the fight fight fight fight fight fight fight
...but someone is holding me now
and letting me cry
...why are they still here through the worst??
Is this you, god?
Oh please, please, PLEASE let it be
please
please I'm so so tired
...let them help you, something says
And the walls start to crack...
a broken bone that "heals" incorrectly may need
to be rebroken to set properly
maybe this...
Maybe this will be the final breaking to set old traumas & broken systems for real REAL healing
please...please
light filters in through the cracks
someone's angel wings cradle me tight
and I
lay down
the fight
✨💛✨ Sara!
This is my favourite part and I also like how you just end the poem with nothing but space...With your name way down lower. No signatures or footers.
Thank you @galenkp, I appreciate that you took the time to read and comment on this. Seriously WHAT IF that's why we go through the really challenging times - to allow ourselves to break apart that we can gather back together stronger & better than ever?? I think there's so much that needs to be "unlearned" and healed from modern living, and the hope and faith that the dark times serve a higher purpose help me through them...maybe helps someone else too 🙏🏽
I agree with your unlearned comment...It's a good way to put it really. We have changed so much as a society and have taken paths we should never have travelled I think.
Thanks for responding.
This was really intense! Love the brutality of expression! Brilliant piece of poetry @saramiller
Thank you @jaynie I am grateful for your feedback. I love poetry because we're not confined by the "rules" of language, but rather we can use the rules as tools to explore all the things that scream to be expressed. Art is freedom!
I love how you articulated that! It sums it up perfectly! And yes, it absolutely is freedom... of expression in any way, shape or form we please!