void
FOR ALL THOSE SUFFERING FROM DEPRESSION....THIS IS FOR YOU, IF NOT.....THIS IS STILL FOR YOU.....I CALL THIS PIECE 'VOID' (EMPTINESS)
SOMETIMES I WONDER WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE NORMAL,
TO CARE ABOUT BEAUTIFUL THINGS LIKE WINTER FALL AND SUMMER,
I WONDER WHAT ITS LIKE TO BE TRULY HAPPY,
YOU KNOW, SMILING, EVEN LAUGHING,
I WONDER WHAT IT'S LIKE TO SEE THE WORLD IN BRIGHT COLORS; RED YELLOW BLUE,
EVEN FOR MY IMAGINATION ITS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE,
BUT I DON'T HAVE TO WONDER WHAT ITS LIKE TO BE SAD,
OR CONSTANTLY MAD,
I DON'T HAVE TO WONDER WHAT ITS LIKE TO QUESTION YOUR OWN EXISTENCE,
CAUSE YOU FEEL NOTHING BUT EMPTINESS,
CAUSE YOU'RE TIRED OF CARRYING MORE THAN YOU CAN BEAR,
TIRED OF DROWNING IN YOUR OWN TEARS,
SOMETIMES EVEN WANTING TO DISAPPEAR,
TRUST ME, I KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE FILLED WITH DESPAIR,
CONSTANTLY TELLING MYSELF I COULD END IT THERE,
BUT I DON'T, PROBABLY OUT OF FEAR,
RIGHT NOW, I DON'T EVEN CARE,
WHAT MATTERS IS THAT I'M HERE.
I've been through depression too. Nothing would make me happy and want to smile. The feeling of emptiness and loneliness even though surrounded by lots of people is so surreal. Occasionally I still fall into such state.
yeah, you never really get out of it....but you can always make peace with it...accept it and move on
I have walked on broken light bulbs, and I did, because I have faith that beyond, there are fireflies