hope that vanished

I paused in silence
I cried silently
I'm afraid to face all this

At first all so beautiful
Every day I am full of jokes and laughter
All dreams are in sight

Now it's all nostalgic
All my dreams have been destroyed
All that's left is disappointment
which is choking up the chest

Do I like this forever
Being a useless person
Like carrion or garbage
which is meaningless

I'm tired and tired
I've tried walking even running
But what I find
It is only a painful torture

Thank you for the gift you gave me.