Who am I?

Within exists eternal flame,
alert in-game I think awake;
freedom vibrates in brief release -
in shameless seeing of timeless tide.

Exists inside undying fire,
controlled desire suppressed to die;
oppressed alive it chokes to breathe -
tortured seed forbidden to see.

Immortal dream aware undead,
boredom beget diseased decree;
decayed beauty lies dead destroyed -
consumed en-joyed attached to-hold.

Transient soul appears confused,
Nothing produced mushin iris,
conscious virus besets the dream -
escape unseen persona mask.

Serene relapse empty diktat,
nameless inkblot survives unborn;
disguised be-torn in deep divide -
dream suicide tranquil comply.