I hate....

Meeting you took me by surprise
That thing about you, I never saw it coming
Now you'd always get me wondering
Thoughts of you I kept on wishing
For special moments of us always together

How can I now cease myself from feeling like this?
When your looks make me melt
When your smile is the best part of my day
When your voice is the only thing I wanted to hear
And every time you move an inch closer, my heart beats faster.

How could I be like this to someone I know so much
To someone who’s so clear doesn't cherish me
To someone who’s in love with someone else?
To someone who makes tears run down my cheeks
To someone who speaks nothing but of his special someone
Why would I be like this to someone that can never be mine?

This is giving me so much headache and worry
I wanted to regain my lost self but I can’t
I truly can’t as I am too drown of you
I feel like I can’t breath anymore without you
You're always leaving me no choice

I find this world so cruel and unfair
If this is love how could this be so painful?
I am terribly sore and so much hurting
If I could only turn back the hands of time
If only I could avoid the first time I laid my eyes on you
Don’t you know that I would trade anything I have
Just to make sure our path wouldn’t cross at all?

Guess my life wouldn’t be this complicated
Guess my life would have been the way as I planned before
So how am I supposed to wake up each day with this weight in my heart
I’m in so much pain of wanting you and fear of insanity
But I got to be strong, I got to be firm
Got to use this last drop of strength before I go crazy
I’ve got to do it now while I still can
I hate to say goodbye, I hate to let you go
I hate to forget you but I have to

For I really hate the fact that I love you this true…