lost

I've always taken pride in knowing what I want and the direction of my future. I thought anything was possible if you believe and put your mind to it. I am not so sure now.

Reality speaks louder than dreams. I said once before life is a rat race to see who can survive at the top of the food chain.

I am disappointed that I haven't done much nor have I seen much of anything. I want to get out there. Like I said, reality.

I find myself staring off into distance land wondering how can I change things, where an I going. I have no idea what awaits me in 5 years...and that terrifies me. I'm not used to this.