Icy waters and fault lines

My mother had a friend who went on a month-long cruise through the Antarctic. One morning at breakfast, a female passenger struck up a conversation with him and they hit it off and on return to Australia, chose to spend their lives together. When I spoke to him about it, he called her his soulmate and saviour.

The reason he took the cruise to Antarctica was to fulfil a dream to see it, before committing suicide by jumping overboard.

Ever wondered how randomisation can affect a life and, how quickly a mind can change? What about your own?

I find it interesting how small influences, a little swing either way of luck, right place, wrong time, a handshake, a smile or a breakfast alone aboard a ship in the Antarctic can change outcomes. For me, randomisation of events has always been my friend, even though I believe it has swung negatively more than positively much of the time.

While the control over much of our life is limited, I think that we can affect some aspects and one of those is our psychological position. While not easy, we are able to work on ourselves to strengthen skills and lessen the effects of weaknesses. Some people rather just lay blame and it is always someone else's fault - be it mine, yours, the government's, the corporation's or - the Communists. Lol.

Maybe it is a mental weakness they can't overcome, but regardless of what happens, we as individuals are the only ones who actually experience our lives and as a result, the only ones who have to deal with it. Just like exercise, if we want to benefit from it, we are the ones who have to take the responsibility of performance.

We can all kill ourselves. We all have the capabilities, but most of us live our whole lives without even an attempt, let alone a successful ending. Why? Why do some see no hope going forward while others go on regardless?

I wonder if the man had jumped the night before, would anything different have happened in the world? Not much perhaps, except for those close to him and his would be soulmate and saviour would never have fallen in love with him. She might have still fallen in love with another though and, never been the wiser.

I think a lot of people live in hope of a better existence, not many spend much thought or time working toward one though. Most prefer to see the world in the way that allows them to feel like they are doing all they can and when negatives happen, it is someone else's fault.

To who's fault is your life ascribed? Do you blame your parents? Do they blame the broken condom? Even on the box they were told that it wasn't 100% effective - But who reads the fine print on a box of condoms.

Randomisation doesn't always have negatives and even an unwanted pregnancy can turn into a fulfilling life. It is up to the child, not the parents - although parents can make this process easier or harder in many ways.

I wonder how many parents have children that they raise with the hope they will suicide? Probably not many. I would say that most parents hope their children will find contentment in activity and someone they can love and be loved by. But then, who knows these days - people are strange.

We have created a very conflicted world as while people want independence, they also crave attention and, they want to belong to a group. Funny isn't it? I am an independent person who does what I want, just like all these people identical to me, doing as I do. The road map for polarization and therefore, control.

I prefer random. Random means it can't be controlled, can't be predicted, can always surprise. No matter how random an event may be, there will always be people who will find someone or something to blame and therefore, take it as a personal attack. Funny how people never feel attacked by good fortune though.

If some rabdom person says they dislike what you are wearing, you will discount their opinion and say, "what do you know, I'll wear what I want". If they say they like what you are wearing, you will thank them. If you don't believe people's judgement when they disagree with you, you shouldn't believe them when they agree either.

I don't care much of other people's judgement of me. I don't care much if they think I am crazy or ugly or stupid. It is funny how many people have such an ego that they believe what they say means something to everyone - delusions of grandeur.

For me, I write and talk, comment and do as I do. If people benefit, that is their fault.

I wonder if the man had jumped, the cold water would have woken him up. Sometimes, it is too late though.

Taraz
[ a Steem original ]
_{(looks like a sleepless night ahead)}