True change... like most things worth having... is hard work, but also worth the effort.
The psychological tenet loosely known as "falsification of self" (which-- sadly-- a lot of people get trapped in) is bad for us. Not only bad, it can actually make us sick, both physically and emotionally. So change is not merely "nice" and "good for us," it's sometimes essential to our well-being.
That's especially true for creative types who often labor under societal pressure (as I am sure you have) to "do something real" with their lives.
Keep on keepin' on-- be yourself!