I'm sure I'm not the only one who begins to mentally note the lessons for the year when December comes around. It's one of those habits I've had for as long as I've been an "adult" (note the air quotes). That being said this year has been extra special for a thousand reasons and making my notes is extra difficult.

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My worst year ever

In plenty of ways it was, and of course I could choose to focus solely on this. This was the year when I closed my company, when I had to sell plenty of things I treasured, even had to sell my car. So yeah, you could say that financially it's been the worse year.

Like plenty of newcomers to this space of cryptos I got scammed too, lost quite a bit of my capital and when I tried to complain, there was nobody who would listen.

You see, you could say I got a crypto survival PhD in 10 months, and boy it was expensive. But, the story does not end there, no sir.

My best year ever

I got over it, I just had to. Knowing that I would not really recover financially as I wanted to, and letting go, allowed me to breathe again. Yes, I know that makes little sense, but it's precisely how I feel. "I'm defaulting on the credit card... what's new?" became my attitude towards the end. I also realigned priorities something that most of us forget to do.

A big chunk of my time was spent asking myself one question: Do I need it? The internal debates were never easy to resolve, but I always felt better in the end of it all.

I also began to focus more of my energy on the things that had more value to me, the things that brought me back to balance. This is precisely why I care so much about community, because in truth it allowed me to cope with everything that was going on. I mean, How could I stay down, when I'm surrounded by people that care? It would hardly make any sense, right?

The community grew, my emotional footing along with it, and next thing you know I'm in Poland reaffirming all my suspicions. Yes, just writing those words requires reflection. On my worse financial year ever, I saw Europe for the first time with a bunch of friends.

Do you see the point I'm trying to make? This has been an amazing year, painful at times, but nonetheless amazing.

In two more weeks

The year would be officially over and all of us will be celebrating the new year adorned with our cultural and personal traditions. But, as 2019 begins I start a new chapter and literally so. The slow waking up I've been partaking on, my re-found convictions for self fulfillment and personal happiness are being worn on my sleeves these days, and that is something I intend not to drown ever again.

So yeah... I'll be grateful for 2018, for breaking my back and for lifting me up once and for all...

Hope everyone has a beautiful day