Please see my losing eternity post for more context on my current theistic worldview. I worked in ministry for 6 years and was a Christian for most of my life. The concepts you are describing here are not new to me. I have "thought about" this quite a bit.

It's funny to me because I could see myself posting on someone else's wall just as you have here, back when my epistemology was based on faith. I wish you well on your journey to truth and an accurate understanding of the physical reality (as far as we're able to perceive it) you exist in.