Being Homeless: How I Lasted Three Days (My Hate For The World)
Well. Before I get started with this one... id like to let all the people that shat on me over the last 3 days know that I have a strong hate for you. Like to the point you cant imagine. When I told people I was going to be homeless or in other words "broke" they immediately started shitting on me.... If I would have told you I was going to be super powerful and rich then would you have loved me? You probably would... You are the same phonies that idolize no one but celebrities, athletes, and anything with the "super-star" label slapped to it... It showed alot about how people treat others... Why is it people are so quick to give more respect to those with wealth? Or with fame? Dont you realize these are the people who only take from society with the mind rather then giving back with their labor?? They are actually below all others in the eyes of God...Its pathetic and humanity should be ashamed of themselves as I to am ashamed of myself.
I fucking hate this earth. And its makes sense it should hate me back. I dont think ill ever be satisfied until the day I die. I hate this WORLD not LIFE. Im not going to kill myself but im looking forward to heaven to say the least. You people that judge me, you dont even know my situation. My step-father is the most heartless bastard you will ever meet. He cares about 2 things.
- Making Money
- And Television
Anyway yesterday I rode a bus all the way from Boston to Vermont assuming I could stay at my cousins for a day or two. Well (sorry to call you out Sam) he turned out to being a total dick-head by ignoring my phone calls. THIS ASSHOLE IS ON HIS FAGGOT SNAPCHAT ALL DAY. Yes, faggot, I use that word. NO ONE IS BORN GAY. The only people that are born gay are the 2 males that can reproduce with each-other (hence no one). Dont worry, I dont discriminate, I dont just hate gay people, I hate ALL NYMPHOMANIACS. Whether gay or not you cant argue the fact SEX is for CONCEPTION NOT PLEASURE. THATS CALLED THE TEMPTATION OF SIN. So anyway, when I got to Burlington I got in the cab and I told the driver to take me to this Hotel. He asked me what I was here for. I told him "to visit my cousin in smugglers notch" and he said "Well it doesnt make sense to get a room why dont I take you now so you could save $100"... His logic made sense but I didnt talk to my cousin yet so I wasnt planning on going straight there.. So then, I paid $100 for him to drive me to Smugglers Notch only for my cousin to reject my phone calls and act like a total prick. You know when people dont want you somewhere but dont tell you? They just give you that "why the fuck are you here" vibe? Thats exactly what happened. So I said. FUCK THIS. I hitch hiked about 5 miles, lucky this old lady picked me up and droped me off at a bus stop that ran to Burlington daily. I was waiting for money to arrive on me credit card so I couldnt get a damn room and I ended up sleeping on a bench. I thought I was going to die of exhaustion and/or freeze to death. I slept 1 hour over a time-frame of around 72. This is why homeless people go crazy. I was actually starting to hullicinate and think irrational thoughts due to lack of sleep. My mind has never acted like that. At 4:30 A.M. I checked my credit. I just sat up next to this bus stop shelter with wifi and it was working (I also had to take a shit extremely bad). I am now at a Hotel where I will be staying one more night then im heading back home to get my own apartment. Its not that I dont have the money to live on my own...Its just one of those things where you keep forgiving people and forgiving people, like Jesus said to. But Jesus also said that when people do not ask for forgiveness or do not feel guilty is when they sin against the Holy Spirit..Then it is unforgiven.
God I hate this world. Forgive me Lord, have mercy on me for I am a sinner. But I feel guilt it is deep in my heart. Do you know how you go to hell? It is when you dont recognize sin as "sin" so you dont feel guilty about it. Its when you say "fuck the bible" "Im smarter then all the prophets in history" so you go on rampage sinning because you dont feel guilty about it. I dont have to do anything about it. All I have to do is talk about Heaven and Hell and you may choose a side. PEACE.
In the end, we won't be mad at God but at ourselves. This world is shit because most hearts are cold.
Love you brah.
Thanks so much I love you to man, I truly mean that. Paradise is waiting for us.
sounds interesting
With all that Christian love flying around, I will hate flagging you because I agree with your beliefs. All but one.
You forgot to leave a reason for your flag. I'll eat the flag if there was a reason for it.
The "Love you brah" here - after flagging me and a cripple for no reason gives God a bad name .
Steem has been on shapeshift for many months.
It was a low quality post that you 100% upvoted yourself.
I flagged @barrydutton for his inaccurrate and low-grade blog as well.
QUALITY guys, not quantity.
As I stated in my post - Steem was grey meaning not functional. I guarantee that it was not working until now. The reason I posted was clearly to let people know that it was. You have a right to your opinion. I will have my right to put you on the watch list useing the same standards you are using . I have 12 posts in 21 days. I mostly give away money and voting power - making people really happy. I hope you are doing likewise.
I promise that the world is too big and varied to hate all of it.
Your cousin may have been cold because no one wants to be around people who are full of hate, anger, and bitterness.
Either let go of the hate, or let it eat you up and isolate you. Only you can decide how you approach your one shot at life. There are no do-overs and no evidence that things will be better when you die. Live it up! That's your main job as a living being.
Your faith is weak
"If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children, and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple."
...sounds like you're on a mission to hate everyone: brother, sister , brethren, whatever. Hope you find love soon....somewhere.
I do feel "love" toward all those people to. But guess what, there is more to life then "love" there is hate, sadness, joy, and wrath. To say you have never felt hate toward someone you love means you never loved them at all. You follow me?
I don't feel hate, I feel dissapointment, betrayal, anger or perhaps frustration at most and stilI love at the same time. Hatred, in my experience, often has more to do about what we feel about ourselves.... So,....no....can't say that I agree with you.
Ok, then your are not a disciple of Jesus. Your not arguing with what I say but what left the mouth of God and what Jesus taught. Humble yourself. Everyone on this earth has felt hatred at some point in life. And if you havent felt hatred for those that perform evil then you support them. For those that arent with us are against us.
...OK, enjoy your hate and good luck.
I dont enjoy it, I will suffer it as Jesus did.
My faith is only a tiny bit weaker than yours. Of the thousands of gods known to human history, I only believe in one less god than you. But I don't know what faith has to do with your quote. I love my family, but I'm not looking for a discipleship. However, maybe it's your hate that's causing problems with your discipleship? Something to think about.
Be careful though, from what I've read about your god, I think it's better to not get his attention. Your god murdered an entire planet's population in a fit of rage. He let his enemy murder Job's family and destroy his livelihood over a bar bet. Job did everything right, but your god let him be tortured because of the "who's got a bigger dick" contest he was having with Satan. Your god has destroyed cities and nations, started plagues, and randomly murdered people just to prove his point.
Maybe your life is going bad because now you're on your god's radar. Good luck with that one. Your book is full of examples of your god screwing over his followers. Let's just hope you don't have to wander in the desert for 40 years before you get on his good side.
And what did Job do? He still remained faithful to him? Why? Because Job knew that his family never died. Because they suffered Job was given hope. Even before Jesus came Job felt the idea of everlasting life. The Book Of Job is one I hold very close to my heart. It reminds us that God makes the good people suffer in this world so that they may be rewarded in the next. It is better to suffer 100 years and live in paradise for eternity rather then vice-versa wouldnt you say?
A hundred years of suffering to spend eternity with the being that caused my suffering? Tempting, but I think I'll pass.
Job got his sons back, but not his daughters, they were replaced by hotter daughters (who cares about ugly daughters, right?). And let's not forget, Job was a Jew, not a Christian. Ask any practicing Jew and they'll tell you that Job is still rotting here on Earth, waiting for his messiah. Or he's just dead. The Jews didn't really have an after-life until the Pharisees invented one around 100 BC. Job never got his eternal reward. He got screwed over for a bet, patched up, and sent off to die.
What I'm most curious about is why your god only talks to Jews. Why didn't your god show his face in China during the time of the Old Testament? Why didn't your god show his face in the Americas? Why has your god only revealed himself to the tribe of Israel? You'd think THE one-and-only almighty true god would be more popular than dragons. Yet dragons show up throughout history in China, in the Nordic countries, and in other places around the globe. At the same time, the most powerful being in the universe only shows up to one small tribe. Doesn't that seem a little bit fishy? Especially when you consider that everyone, supposedly, is a descendant Noah. So EVERYONE on the planet knew of your god, but god only gave a shit about the ones in the Middle East.
So consider this, if your god isn't treating you right, you might just be the wrong race. Unless you're part of the tribe of Israel, I wouldn't expect a whole lot from their god. And if you are part of the tribe of Israel, duck! Your god is more likely to ruin you than anyone else.
Keep God first and you can't lose bro. Hope you get your own apartment soon so you can have a fresh start. Godspeed and stay safe.
Always brother, thank you and Im on my way im looking forward to it.
You're very welcome. Stay sharp and keep a wise counsel
Don't hate yourself or people around you. Its always a shock for someone who comes face to face with society, special under these conditions. You experience feelings hidden feelings with in your self. With time these feelings calm down and you will feel love. (Sorry for my English its not my native language)