Midnight Insight

I'll tell you now, I'm a bit of an insomniac. Through years of poor health and habits and now medications, I don't always get a say in when I sleep. Which leaves me with quite a bit of time to ponder/ruminate on the many thoughts running through my mind. This is one such entry I'll start to share with you.

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Sometimes I wonder how honest I can actually be, with myself and with others. I think about what motivates me to lie, or the spectrum of lies we allow ourselves to tell and accept (innocent or less so), and conversely what motivates me to seek the "truths" of the situation.

I mention truths, in that I've come to accept in my life that the root truth of any circumstance is encased in the perspectives of those who experience it. It's a concept I'm sure many may be familiar with, every person has their truth - or something akin to that.

Which pushes me to more confidently (thanks to the power of digital anonymity) be willing to be vulnerable and share insights into what I experience, and what my perceived truths are. I've always felt a desire to share my life in a blog format, but have worried on the potential to be perceived as arrogant or too involved with myself - but by choosing a discrete path and controlled environment like Steemit, I feel comfortable doing that here.

I've thought of even trying to frame these through thought records, a proponent of Cognitive Behavioural Therapy I've participated with that always seemed to benefit from more examples, as well as specifically channeled into literary and illustrative pieces of art expression. I'm hoping to really delve into the journey I've had with healing my mental health, and the challenges that have come from this. Not that I see myself as unique, but to hopefully add another piece into the puzzle of understanding human experience, a true passion of mine.

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Before I divulge anything further too personal or go off many tangents... I'm open to hearing some thoughts or questions that could help me streamline the format for future posts!

Let me know what you think, and thanks for your time reading this :)!