OH hun 😢 I totally get that. It's been 3yrs since I lost the last one and I still cry. It breaks my heart how I found him. There is nothing weird at all.

I can completely understand about how you feel about getting anymore after your current ones. It's hard. You're not replacing them that's the one thing to remember. But yes it hurts more each time you lose another :( .

Talking about crying. I didn't cry but I did get very teary eyed. Thank YOU 💜💜💜💜