Mommy Frustrations: Please Let Me Fix It!

Being a parent comes with lots and lots of challenges. Any parent will tell you that some days are just plain hard. It comes with the job description. It is definitely one of the most challenging and rewarding roles you can ever play in someone else’s life. This morning was a particularly difficult one. Both kids just woke up in an extremely emotional state. It’s normal for grumpy Kata as she is not a morning person. It is not normal for my little happy Soren.

He’s an extremely sensitive soul and has been having ‘little accidents’ for a few months now. He’s very sensitive about it and basically melts down whenever we have to clean up the accident. I have tried all sorts of different things to help him. No 2 for him has always been a challenge. We’ve worked through always requesting a nappy to do it, to a fear of the toilet overflowing whenever he needs to flush it. He’s also a picky eater so getting enough of the right fibre in his diet is also a challenge.

Anyway that’s the history and this morning started with a clean-up. He just burst into tears and my heart just breaks for him every time we go through this. You can just see the heartache on his face and as a mother this is by far the most heart breaking thing we can see. Seeing that your child is suffering and in pain and there isn’t really much you can do about it. The worst part was that he stayed like that. Everything that came after that just made him burst into tears again.

I had to drop him off at school like that. I almost burst into tears myself just watching him walking away from the car. He looked so sad and droopy. All I wanted to do was jump out and hold him. To go back home and just spend some time just snuggling and loving him. This is what he needed and I couldn’t give it him. I had to go work. I have felt like this many times since I became a mother. This frustration that because I need to go work I can’t be there to fully look after them. That and the frustration of knowing that I won’t be able to fix everything in their lives for them and will have to watch them go through their own little challenges. Their own pain and their own suffering.

I understand that this is part of their lives and they need to learn how to get through these on their own. It’s just hard as their parent to watch. I’m also a very solution oriented person. I’ve tried everything from my side to help him so that it can stop happening. The reality is that it is in his hands now. He needs to come to the realisation that he needs to go to the toilet more regularly so that he doesn’t get constipated. To drink and eat what I ask him to and to ask me for help if he’s had an accident. The ball is really in his court and all I can do is watch and encourage in any way that I can. That doesn’t mean that it’s not incredibly difficult for me to watch. It just means that this is yet another Mommy frustration that I have to embrace and accept.

Thank you for reading and remember to keep smiling 😊
All photos were taken by me 😊, with my Samsung Galaxy S8.

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