Steemit OpenMic Week 83 @paintingangels Original Song - Carnival Lights Down

Unfinished and mistakes everywhere, and also I do not speak well to people so why I tried to explain the meaning is beyond me.

HOWEVER, I promised myself I would enter this week because my daughter asked me not to chicken out. (Conversation.. "Mom did you enter open mic yet this week?" "No." "You promised you would enter." "Okay.")
(In 12 years since she's been born I have never broken a promise to my Emma. Will not start now.)

Hope I got it in in time. Thanks to all who make this contest possible. I love you even though you don't know me. If you're reading this at all, I love you. Apologies I didn't record it over again till it was better, but I have to go pick up my daughter from school and do not have time.

Please dont upvote this entry.. give your vote to someone who really put their all into it.

Edit: I have deleted some of my negative words from a couple hours ago when i was frustrated.

Love, Serena

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Lyrics, in case you can't understand me.

I've never been this dark before
Stark-raving crazy
face-up on the floor
angry am I for losing my place
3 feet down with a smile on my face

Your head's in a cloud
my feet are in mud
Carnival lights define where next you will run

And though I'm a mess
I shall clearly confess
I wait for you to run to my house of fun.

Give me a dance, you rodeo clown
Ride up and save me
before I sink down

I dreamed about you and a big red balloon
We rode to the sea
and you hummed me a tune
then we howled at the moon.

Sometimes it feels like this a test
Are we gonna pass
God, I've done my best.

The face on the wall, she sings me a song.
La dee dah dee dah, the time has almost come.

Give me a dance, you rodeo clown.
Ride up and save me before I sink down.
I dreamed about you and a big red balloon

Let's ride to the sea and I'll hum you a tune
then we'll howl at the moon.