Steemit Open Mic Week 102: Original Music — Time to Fade

in openmic •  last year  (edited)

Songs are distilled slices of the human experience. Moments in time. This isn’t how I always feel, just a passing uncertainty I’m a little too familiar with.

I turn to writing and music to keep energy and emotion moving, so it doesn’t get stuck. I have all kinds of thoughts and feelings, some of which are pretty awful. Pretty sure that’s normal for any human.

Words help. I find I can step back from the intensity of life if I have a way to process it. Music is literal vibration. Singing gives voice to words I would otherwise hold back.

This is a sad, lonely song, but those emotions are part of being human. So here they are, captured in a tune.


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Time to Fade — Original music by Katrina Ariel


I think it’s time to fade
All I can do is wait
Dilute the brilliance like watercolour
Accept my humble fate

It’s not like I’m alone
So many lonely in this world
Go nurse my needy heart with words
Toughen up, little girl

It’s hard not to get bitter, when the wanting doesn’t quit
Train my thoughts away from you—more pain than I’ll admit

But you don’t have time for me
And it’s harder to believe
That you ever will…
Toughen up, little girl

Maybe passion’s overrated, all that ecstasy and thrill
It chokes on life’s obligations, drowns in work and bills
The spark that started strong, starts to limp along
Everything gets business-like, but it always happens, that’s just life

Yeah I think it’s time to fade
Not so good at waiting
But what choice do I have
Better accept my fate

It’s not like it’s your fault
You work till you hit a wall
Suppose it’s on me for falling
Should’ve known better when love came calling

It’s hard not to get bitter, when the wanting doesn’t quit
Train my thoughts away from you—more pain than I’ll admit

You don’t have time for me
And it’s harder to believe
That you ever will…
Toughen up, little girl

So many lonely hearts
Gotta look after each other
Yeah, I see you sister
You know I see you brother

I think it’s time to fade
Into the patterns of my days
But I keep looking to the sky above
Hoping to survive this love

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This song has some tough love in it, some bittersweet reality checks. Maybe some pessimism? I’m generally an optimist, but sometimes I get down.

Tried to keep the music upbeat, at least, so the thing as a whole isn’t too depressing. I actually really like the guitar part. Gets in my head. ;)

Thanks so much for listening! Big thank you to everyone who participates in open mic, and to all the sponsors and judges.

Whatever happens, keep singing your song!

Peace. @katrina-ariel

Katrina Ariel


Author bio: Katrina Ariel is an old-soul rebel, musician, tree-hugging yogini, and mama bear to twins. Author of Yoga for Dragon Riders (non-fiction) and Wild Horse Heart (romance), she's another free-spirit swimming in the ocean of Steem.

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your voice reminded me to Tori Amos here, it's really sweet bittersweet song... don't toughen too much... we just shield, and grow a crust over tender hearts

Oh! I love Tori Amos, thank you! As for toughening up... not sure I can anyway. ;) Yeah, thick-walled tender heart over here, so many cracks in the crust. Thanks for the sweet comment, my friend.

That would make a good title for a country song
Thick walled tender heart

Omg I’m so writing a country song around this. Lol! “This thick-walled tender heart got too many cracks...” 😹

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Quite a song. Bitter sweet indeed. And I enjoyed it too.

Thank you! Glad you enjoyed it. :)

You are awesome. Stay that way :)

You can make an album too, I don't think it takes so much to be a full-time softrock Artist.

lol! It takes a lot to be a full-time musician, but thank you! I'm working on it. :)

Keep working on it and know, I'm among your numerous fans.

Ok ya, that's a real tearjerker Princess. Beautiful nonetheless, but you need a warning label on this one😋

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lol! Sorry. I thought the "This is a sad, lonely song" bit at the top was enough of a disclaimer. ;) Thanks though. I'll try for a happier tune next time.

Lmao! No worries hun, I'm just teasing ya. Played it for my ma she was kinda choked up. "Did she have a bad break up or something?" she said.

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Aw, you played it for her? Should play her "Back to Myself," or "Still My Mind" instead. ;)

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Gah. Not yet. On my list, for real.

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I really like your style
I had to listen to the end
Toughen up but don't fade yet..
Enjoyed it through the sadness oozing out of it ❤️

Aw, thank you so much! Yeah, don't worry, I'm not gonna fade. ;) Just a passing moment.

Just lovely :)

Most appreciated. :)

Wonderful voice wonderful song and totally feeling this fading thing hehe, it comes and goes. Thanks for a lil inspection of my thoughts and inspiring me to move on and keep going with life, we all feel this way sometimes we shine bright and then when sometimes dull out. Totally cool my dear... Be well and stay awesome love.

You're so sweet. Yes, feelings ebb and flow. The fade comes, then life surges through the space created in the wake of sadness, and fresh new growth comes. ((hugs))

Hello @katrina-ariel, thank you for sharing this creative work! We just stopped by to say that you've been upvoted by the @creativecrypto magazine. The Creative Crypto is all about art on the blockchain and learning from creatives like you. Looking forward to crossing paths again soon. Steem on!

Thank you so much for the support! I love sharing my creativity on the blockchain! Steemin' on, for sure! :)