From 5 Desperados on A Bus to Dancing on Tables to Blacking Out to Suicidal to Completely Sober
"Suicide really became an option and the choice was to live or die. I am so fucking happy I didn’t kill myself."
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HUGE @recoveryinc shoutout to Charlotte.
The night the picture on the left was was taken was a crazy. That night before even getting to my friends to get ready to go out I'd turned up half an hour after work after drinking 5 Desperados within my half hour journey on the bus. By this time I was consuming alcohol and drugs like they were constantly running out. I had no stop button anymore. I made such a fool of myself that night, dancing on tables, not being able to walk and continuously walking into the road (which you would have thought being run over 2 years before might not have been a good idea, that's blackout for you) I don’t remember any of this night apart from coming out of blackout around 4am in someones flat and wondering where the fuck I'd been all night.
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That still wasn’t enough to stop me drinking, I had a few more months till suicide really became an option and the choice was to live or die. I am so fucking happy I didn’t kill myself. I have the most incredible life today and when things hardly ever go my way I'm so happy they don’t. Because I make a mess of everything I think I should do. I've turned my whole life over to my Higher Power and this is a love and faith like I've never felt. If anyone is struggling with drinking, I promise you there is a better way to life. One where you don’t have to drink or use ever again.
He told me I could be anything, I asked him to keep me sober!🙏❤
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