Wow... great article. I remember 49, it wasn't very long ago for me but I was thinking the same things at the time. 7 x 7 = a very magical and powerful number, perhaps a rite of passage? I certainly struggle with these issues as I am sure all women do, especially when they get older and have to face ... "reality" or whatever it is. There was another ... breadcrumb, so to speak...as I read down the article, not very far in, I saw your Amaryllis. I have one that is just blooming now, from Christmas. Anyway, I've not read all of this but I'm resteeming it so I can go over it, as long as it is. Also following you, it looks to me like you have lots of good stuff on your blog! Thanks for taking the time to put all of this down into words. Namaste. Have a great day!