I like the crocheted slouchy looking hat @borrowedearth, especially with the brim. I think it will look nice in any color. The grey (or was it beige) that you have on is nice. I hope you find the peace that you are looking for. And hope you sell loads of this on etsy to make the cash that you need. Here is a little upvote for you (sorry, my SP is still not much but I give you what I have 😘)