one time i was in the hospital and they told me i wasnt getting better a doctor came in who was bald and had these weird glasses that made his eyes look big he asked me what my goals were i told him i didnt have any goals then he said that maybe i should write some goals on paper but when he left i didnt write goals i just wrote questions about why i keep waking up and dont remember falling asleep so i guess my goal is that one day someone will write back telling me the answer but what sucks is i never get to mail my letters in the hospital because they take them and i dont know what they do with them my doctor says that i need to start thinking about the big picture like what i want to do with my life i think he should get off my back i didnt ask him for help my mom says i have to accept help or else i wont amount to anything but i dont want to amount to anything my head hurts