Wind of change
In the beginning of this year I decided change was necessary. Tired of never ending loop I had placed myself in. Being aware of the fact drained me every day. Being depressed did not help and people telling me I can’t pissed me off. I was angry because I feared that they might be right.
It was easy to stay in the loop, even comfortable when I managed to trick my brain into thinking it was a game or ignored everything disappointing. The problem was me burying my head in the sand, dulling myself down and getting only worse.
It was so strange. The moment I made the decision to say yes to change, it seemed as if I was pulled by invisible force, the universe itself or something. One thing happening after another, everything fitting perfectly and clearing the path that no doubt in my mind was right. Even how I ended up on Steemit. I still look back in disbelief of the timing and events. Randomness? Chaos? That pull again. Whatever it was, I am beyond grateful to be here.
I got out of the loop and finally addressed the issues ignored for far too long. I said I can and began running regularly. I still hate it, but I love it. I began drawing and painting watercolor after years and years of absolute nothing. I found courage to share it with you on blockchain.
It has been year of personal growth, change, healing, exploration of new horizons and making new friends. Sure, few struggles, but they are essential part of the journey as well.
Highlight of the year - discovering Steem, Steemit, going to Lisbon to Steemfest and meeting so many lovely fellow Steemians. Steem on! ^^
Song of the day: Joe Strummer, Mescaleros - Mondo Bongo
Thought of the day: One step to make chain reaction
Tiny happiness of the day: Being productive
So many do this without ever realising it. They live their lives as victims of circumstance without ever taking responsibility for their own experience. Taking responsibility doesn't suddenly make life magical and suffering-free, but it is living.
You are right, as always Taraz. We have ability to chose how we lead our lives. We allow ourselves to be affected by people and events. Maybe it because we are confused with all the emotions and care and not to care, let things in and not let things in. Maybe we lack education of how to be and not hurt ourselves all the time.
Embracing change is always good. And it's so good to hear you started painting again, the worst thing for someone expressing it's self in that way is not to make art. There is one Rodin quote I always remember in this kind of situations, and it goes..If you don't create art it's like having opened wound bleeding inside of you...
So happy healing :)
Aww thank you for sharing this quote with me @jungwatercolor! That is interesting, because this entire time I felt that something important was missing, my creative side was dying from all the dullness. It is way better now. ^^
❤ You are a beautiful soul ❤
Thank you @supernoval! Aww
I hope we get to meet at the next steemfest. :)
I really hope so too @vermillionfox! ^^ It would be lovely to meet you!
Making changes keeps life fresh. The older I get the more freedom to do different things I wish to have.
Thank you for stopping by @ooohyeah! :)
Indeed. Life is too short to sit still and let opportunities to try different things slide away. I have to keep reminding that to myself a lot.
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Tell me about it, lol
cool, i wish you continue in making change and don't give up, have a good luck you write well
I hope we get to meet at the next steemfest. :)
I tell my YouTube audience about Steemit from time to time. A dozen or so have come over. I know it probably sounds cliché but it is true nonetheless...Steemit can be life changing.