Hmm.. I think that you're completely misinterpreting what I said. The last two sentences was in no way related to rape or pillaging. Rather, it's a play on words about the common colloquialism and the proper name of a female dog. It's in no way meant to be interpreted as inciting violence, or even being disturbing. Also, the whole piece recounted a previous bout of exhaustion and the vow to learn from past mistakes. If anything, I'm heading directly away from exhaustion with my new strategy. I don't know if it's just an issue of wrong translation.