A Faliure Longing for Achievement

let us recall January, and even a little before 2017 I had hit rock bottom.

My sister and dad are on steemit, Of course, I wouldn't want to call myself a good for nothing, lazy, bitter ingrate who leeches of her parents, but that's how I was
and they know it!

Undergrad and can't graduate? No job, and with all the little problems here and there. Pretty much my being irresponsible, making wrong choices in life and taking many things for granted created a big hole, a sink hole, and i sank in it.

I decided to rekindle my passion for drawing, this year is an amazing year for my art and I am proud that I didn't waste my ability and I realized the abundance of blessings. Since then life started to turn around for the better!

I always felt like I was going no where, anxious and pressured about big responsibilities and I was afraid. Often times I considered myself like a loser. But to me, I knew I couldnt be and I decided to change that.

Achievements in ART

I asked myself what do I have to do? What does it take? I discovered answers soon enough

books books and more art books! I have many but studied few. Time to refresh, learn something new!
This is a very good artbook that I loved reading, it had so much useful tips. This got me started. I need to recap every skill and technique I had to know.

I thought, I always did draw when I was young, but why did I have to wait so long to be so serious about it.

My drawing when I was 8 years old for my parents

This is a picture of the list

Some listed works, all from this year. There are unticked boxes which I still have to make

I'm sure I counted right, 104

104 WORKS OF ART

now, I don't want to bombard you with photos but I included in here the ones I liked the most, the ones special to me and commission works that are safe (with permission from owner) to share.

LUCKY 7

introducing the lucky 7! I was privileged to have them displayed in a Festival here, Kadayawan Festival here is annualy celebrated in Davao City Philippines.

it took me from January to august to complete these 12" x 16" major pieces

Up close with the 7: Colored pencils and graphite collection

Zeus the blind owl, he was rescued and now safe. I was inspired to draw him, his existence reflects human kindness towards animals

look out fox! A hunted animal, wishing to be safe and free, we named him Wembley the fox

Tigger, don't we all love tigger, a nearly endangered species

Mother and Cub

Rascal, the rainbow Lorikeet

grazing rhinos, these are white rhinoceros, only three are left in the whole world. knowing about this filled me with sadness and I was depressed for two weeks, this is my greatest inspiration

The ivory hunt, one bullet for a tusk, one bullet for a tusk, the elephant runs in the ivory hunt

Other Favourites

I continued my work and also, I ventured using other techniques and styles

Bred for the bullet, Lions are bred in farms now in south africa, trophy hunting must stop, let the king and queen be in peace

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Jaguar

In a box, this reminded me of caged animals in zoos, I hope theyre treated well, or else, set them free!

let's mix space art with wildlife and thus a mantis from outerspace was born!

margaret, Lyricalmime's original character: art trade

Pegasus, Run and fly swiftly for Zeus Cries!

meow, says Silphur the kitty

FAN ART MASHUP challenge on Deviantart.com, Yoshi + sleeping + moon

Work in progress photo of Zeus

Marawi siege

sigaw ng luha (marawi siege)

self portrait, with a twist, between good and bad

Broken, one of my latest works, beauty in brokenness

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Digital Art - Mixed Media - other works

I hope you're not tired of scrolling down or seeing things repeatedly (for those who have seen this before)
I also tried digital art using my phone! exploration is a must!

What does the fox eye see?

A christmas CAT

jessel Daryanani cane

Mickeys wish

magic

Selena the dragon

Neutral colors

Lady by the waterfalls

forest in warm colors

baybayin, the ancient filipino writing

blue tit: art trade with Florian

Senbazuru legend, Philippine - Japan Festival 2017 contest entry and 2ND PLACE winner piece

the black pearl, digital art

the white pearl, digital art

Tree beard from the lord of the rings

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ballpen art, sunflowers

The guardian of the purple jungle, a mix of digital and traditional art

Commissioned works

I have made so many but I will only show these.

Aya

lawrence

Pau

Mesh

hanbok

luy

background is a killer

when we pray

jet

I also have some art made for others which I made recently, these are my fellow steemians, our* fellow steemians

@amvanaken

@kneelyrac

Steemit Achievement

After my long months of art making, I was introduced to steemit by a friend, @thecrimsoncomet! i tried it and it worked out for me.
I overcame fear of not being so knowledgeable about blogging, I learned. Added to that, I also joined numerous contests such as

• OPM singing challenge - where i played guitar and sang
• 2000 word essay contest by steemit achievers - and I joined twice!
• many art contests with different challenging themes!
  I was able to be many things I was not and...

The Best Achievement

I did not have a trace of artist block, I always was inspired to create new art! This will be one of my topics soon in my next post. How to stop art block!

to me, aside from all the art, the exhibits, and the growth I had as an artist, the best achievement ever was that I was able to help my parents and family through my steemit earnings. Plus! i have proof that steemit isnt a scam (which people doubt so often) by cashing out.

Gotta thank #steemph and #steemitachievers family, MABUHAY! they have been very supportive and also, #steemitbloggers family!

To the first few who helped me on here, @thecrimsoncomet and @deveerei and to the many new steem fam I've met and invited. Let's all grow together!

Look back at 2017

art by Jessel Namalata in an art exhibit: Daba Daba Dabaw
I enjoyed this overview of my 2017, I always wanted to summarize the year. Thank you to @nomadsoul for holding a contest as meaningful as this!

My Goal for 2018

New year is coming and I only hope that I can make better art and improve my consistency in art making! As I usually say I have a gazillion of things to draw, my art list is not finished and I have yet to create bigger and better works if i can! it is just a matter of willpower.
FULL STEEM AHEAD!

Thank you so much for stopping by and taking the time to read

My art is posted in the following sites, links provided! just click
MY DEVIANT ART PAGE
MY INSTAGRAM
MY FACEBOOK ALBUM FOR ART
MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL

I also have some friends who make wonderful art:
@wanderingartist
@kennik
@shanehobie
Also, my dear sister
@noellesevilla
My dad (he just blogs about funny things)
@gems.and.cookies
And my best friends
@fukumineko
@joyjoyharb

I encourage people to pursue their art dream!

never give up on your art! it is inspiring! You can follow these people, they often hold art challenges which will really be fun and challenging!
@juliakponsford
@sirsensei
@topkpop

CHEERS!

have a great day!

unleash the artist in you!
feel free to comment and ask questions about art! I will be happy to teach you!