Thanks for asking! On one hand I am super happy to be with my wife. On the other hand the stress of the city feels like a sledgehammer in my face, to which I react with thoughts and feeling that make me question whether I'm a good person at all.
Sorry, I actually didn't want to get into it so deeply to open up the can of worms. However, right now it feels very nice to respond to your inquiry, so I appreciate that. :-)