Sports Camp Incoming

I can’t remember where I picked up this advice, but they say that you should write down thoughts and feelings before making a big life decision. And in forwardsight (you know, the opposite of hindsight) I know I’ll be proud of myself.

I’ve made the decision to go out of my way to find new friends, and to strengthen bonds with the friends I already have here. Oh, did I hear you cheer? Well sit down for a moment, pal, so I can tell you some things straight.

I’m no potato, and it’s not like I’ve been sitting around waiting for friendship to happen. No sir. I’ve invited people to join me at events, they bail. I’ve started conversations on a mutual topic and the other person spends an hour talking about themselves. I’ve organized Pokémon Go events and those I invited ditched me (and Kyle) for a random they deemed ‘more cool’ to hang out with. I even (to my embarrassment) went on a blind friendship date which left me feeling like the biggest loser on the planet.

But you know, I freaking picked myself up and decided to make a change. Because that’s what I do. The last time I joined a new church, I came out with a husband. So, in a way, this step has a 100% success rate.

You know, it’s nice to be pursued as a friend. But sometimes, I gotta be the pursuer. And so… drum roll please… I’ve signed up to a sports camp next weekend.

I’ve given up my lunch breaks the last two weeks to invest in family relationships, so I’ve had little time to psych myself out about it. But when I do ponder that coming weekend, I’m downright terrified.

I’m terrified of being rejected, and it doesn’t help that I have never played any of the sports being covered on Labour weekend. I signed my weekend away a week ago, at a time when I was feeling optimistic about new adventures. But that optimism has been a seesaw ever since.

This is me stepping out into the unknown, held up by a prayer I’ve prayed my entire life. I’m going to be a great friend to all those people at the camp that I’ve never met before. And surely… one of them is bound to stick.