You know that feeling when you know you've made the right decision and are comfortable with life?
Yeah.... that definitely wasn't how I felt with university.
All my schooling life, I had no idea what I wanted to be in the future. I am very mathematically inclined and am interested in automotive so first thing everyone would put forward to me was, DO MECHANICAL ENGINEERING!!
So what did I do? Exactly that.
I think it was the first week of uni that I was already unsettled with University environment, the lecturers were slack and just read off their powerpoints, the whole teaching environment seemed pointless to me and so from week 2 onwards, I would skip every lecture and worked through the textbook instead (FYI: It's much better to learn through a textbook than a lecturer completely uninterested in teaching a subject)
Every day I went in I thought, "Maybe tomorrow will be better" or "I'll give it a good crack and maybe I ill enjoy it more". 3 years on, it never got better.
I felt sick at the stomach all the time with this gut wrenching decision on what the hell I was even doing. I would just keep persisting and persevering until my mental health took a huge hit. I was forcing myself for 3 years to do something I knew I didn't want to do and my mind didn't like it. I felt depressed, lost and stuck with the massive BULLS*** of a course with no sign of light at the end of the tunnel. It was this point I knew I had to do something about it.
One day, I felt a sigh of relief, for I had finally made a decision. I had decided to finally leave University for good. It was like the angels had opened up the heavens and started singing harmonically. I had this huge urge to run around and never stop, I finally felt like myself again.
You see, we're brought up in this society where you're told to go to university after schooling, get a degree in whatever and then go work for the rest of your life. That's just not going to cut it for me, I need more than that, I can't follow a mundane common path because nothing I have ever done follows the common way of life.
Our standard way of life isn't built to breed external thinkers, it's the ones that break off from the herd and begin to take choices into their own hands that really feel fulfilment in life.
Even though I spent 3 years doing a course that wasn't for me, at an institution forced upon this generation (and ridiculous fees might I add) with very little breathing time to even think, it wasn't a waste of time.
You see, I had to go through this experience to realise it, to realise what else life has to offer. It's the mistakes in life that push you further to where you want to go, so long as you learn from them.It also taught me to work hard, meet deadlines and to effectively work in a team, which is very valuable regardless of career path
Even though I have no degree to show for my time, I have built a stronger, wiser and happier character for myself and that is extremely important in life.
And lastly, it has taught me that Life is about choices, without them, we're just a puppet hanging by it's strings
Let me know in the comments if you've had a similar experience or any words of wisdom/advice to give someone keen to get out into the world.