I was lost for words Erline as I read your post. Not only did you describe what happened, you allowed us to feel your pain.Over the years I have conducted hundreds of funeral services, many of which have been where parents have lost their children. For a parent to lose a child, it must be the the worst experience any parent can have. It overturns the normal order of events where the parent goes before the child. I can understand your anger at God and the asking of why. As you have discovered though, He is a loving, forgiving and understanding God and will continue to hold you, Roy, Kami, and the whole of your family in his loving arms until the time comes for you all to be joyfully reunited with Chad. God Bless you Erline for your openness and honesty and allowing us to share your pain. xx