I always try to look at money this way - unless it's actually mine, I didn't lose anything. I know it's sometimes hard to think that way, but it's healthy. Your tournament sounded great - meeting Negreanu, Hansen, Katchalov, Devilfish and the others, damn, I'd love that.

PS:
Schadenfreude (/ˈʃɑːdənfrɔɪdᵊ/; German: [ˈʃaːdn̩ˌfʁɔɪdə] ( listen); lit. 'harm-joy') is pleasure derived from the misfortune of others. Borrowed from German into English and several other languages, it is a feeling of joy that comes from seeing or hearing about another person's troubles or failures.
Dunno why you kept saying that word haha.