Subconscious is a really difficult thing to understand. One of the things that bother me the most about minds is how difficult it is to change one's nature. First, it is difficult enough to NOTICE, to realize what's going on. To be conscious about ourselves, aptitudes, fears an such. But even when you are able to see yourself a little bit clear, it is amazingly difficult to transform it. If it's something that's hurting you and you don't want it anymore... It's never enough to just be conscious about it. The will to change is also hard to get. Minds are tricky, your subconscious is a smart as you are, sometimes even smarter, it always enters through the back door. It's annoying.