I can see how mindfulness can be something hard to get. For some, their feelings lead the way.I am guilty of that and I am also trying to let go of that.
For a long time, I felt like I was being attacked emotionally and I was tired of being mindful as I was the only one who was. So I let go, letting my feelings of hurt take over as I was tired and weak to keep going. But once I got tired of of being in that hard state of mind that was ever so damaging, I became mindful, and showed the other how to be as well. That is what I should have done from the beginning, but that doesn't mean that person was ready to be at that time. Many lessons here. Thank you for your guidance.