Some day maybe I will learn
Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.
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Or not expecting different results, but simply allowing the cycle to happen because you are so tired of trying. Because fighting for something that was never anything more than a glimmer of a possibility of something beautiful, and will never be is just too much anymore. Not because it couldn't be but because the other person isn't capable of putting out the small amount of energy it would take. When all of the empty promises in the world can't fix it anymore. When you stay not because you want to but because you can't physically do it all on your own. And they know this, and they use that against you. Slowly, bit by bit, your independence has been taken from you and you have been so caught up in your inner pain that you never saw it until it was too late. Until you are left there, sitting in the dark with your own guilt tearing you apart. Knowing that you failed at everything.
*You failed as a wife because you couldn't physically do everything required to manage a home.
*You failed as a mother by allowing your children to be raised in the same kind of toxic environment you were.
*You failed as a woman because you have not been strong enough to show your daughters through your own deeds that they deserve better.
You were weak and let him win time and time again. You allowed his petulant childish behavior to wear you down. Until you crumbled, every single time, and let him have his way. Because all you ever wanted to do was make him happy.
But you never realized that it would never be enough. It would never matter how much you gave him, nothing will ever fill that empty darkness inside him. You can't fix him. It's killing you to keep trying. But you do it anyway.
Why?
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I feel your thoughts & pain.
From the other side of the table, it is defeating to never be able to say or do the 'right' thing. Nothing ever meeting her 'expectations', despite there never being a written or verbal rundown on what they might be.
The only advise I can offer is to suggest your past, like mine, is in the past.
And the only thing I have figured out so far, is I can stayed chained to it, drag it around with me into the future, or simply say f'ck it and snap that leg iron off & step forwards.
I hope you can find your way. :-)
Thank you. Toxic relationships are never easy to break free from. I hope that you can find your way as well. We all deserve to be truly happy. Both with ourselves and those we love.♥
Thank you.
Wise @tabzjones and sharing the truth about a part of Our daily life. A solution cannot solve a problem when it is the one striking the problem to emerge in the first place. Those who study History know, when History repeats itself, there are those making the same mistake again. Pray for not having History keeps on repeating continuously...
Thank you for your kind words.History can be a vicious cycle when we can't seem to change things.
I feel you. {{Hugs}} ♡♡♡
Resteemed because i think a lot of people can relate