Bipolar - Coming to terms with a diagnosis....
It's all new, now it's recognised
Nothing has changed
The old view is a lie
I see it so clearly
I'm feeling so free
My eyelids have opened
I've found reality.
It's now time, to go upwards
Into this new world
Leave behind what I should
Drop the baggage
Pour a drink
Celebrate happiness
Don't stop to think.
But it dies, that great feeling
I crash to the ground
Fell straight from the ceiling
Now I'm deep in the dark
Go away
Your not welcome
Please Leave my park.
It's all new, now its recognised
So much has changed
Not sure what I was thinking
Or feeling
In the time I was blinking
My whole world
Fell apart.
This poem was written five years ago by myself whilst I was trying to research the illness with which I had recently been diagnosed. I was also trying to contend with the ongoing alterations to my medication whist trying to discover a combination that would suit me.
I spent a lot of time during this period of my life driving around these country lanes in Kent. Nature has a lot to be thanked for as it helped me gain a necessary amount of calmness, allowing me time to digest.
Thank you for sharing this poem. Once I reached the middle, I got chills and tears in my eyes from the painful familiarity. We have to take it moment to moment when day to day is too much.
Thank you for your kind comment. I agree. :)
This is beautiful, especially with the calmness as the ending.
I too share a similar diagnosis.
You might find this interesting as I did. https://www.democracynow.org/2017/12/28/lithium_love_and_losing_my_mind
Thank you.
Thank you for the interesting link!
I am pulling together a post for tomorrow about my experiences being able to be vocal about an illness of stigma. I am interested in how others get to this same place of being able to speak out.
It makes me quite sad that there is still a stigma to mental health illnesses. I do not understand why so many people refuse to understand that it is an illness.
I have always been fairly open about my illness until recently. I have learnt that my diagnosis does not define me and it is not necessary to be so open to people you meet day to day. We have health professionals for this, and forums / groups for fellow sufferers etc...
Oh I concur. I think it is fear based, the stigma.
IT is something. The fact that so few people speak out tho. Or allow these expressions in mainstream or even counterculture media.
Forums and stuff def exist. But I do think it needs to be in more places. I think you agree?
Yes I do agree. There are few support groups, few charities and in the UK at least, the national healthcare system just doesn't have the resources to do their best job.
The mental health awareness campaigns seem to be on the rise, but I think the problem is that we are taught to 'keep a stiff upper lip' and 'grin and bear it' from such a young age that it's perhaps difficult for a society to change its overall view on the matter.
I have hope that as time goes on it IS becoming more accepted as an illness and more people are speaking out about it. I have noticed that there has been media attention on males suffering with mental health problems and many celebrities now seem to openly discuss their mental health.
I live in the United States and wish a "celebrity" in particular would discuss his insanity, but I think most of that is politics. Sorry to start a topic that might be annoying although I never have met a Britt who liked Trump.
It is nice to talk to you! I am going to have to peel back the layers of your other posts. I haven't checked to see if you wrote others, but I hope... I see a lot of great stuff on Steemit, as well as nonsense, and am looking to develop more of a community here. As well as making sense of it. I am really new.
Thank you for this discussion. I am glad to meet someone else not just being silenced. However you get strength! Good for you!
I haven't had the time to give 100% to my Steemit account yet, I am hoping that this will change soon.
It is nice to talk to you too. I have wrote many others, there are one or two in my blog here. :)