The doubt and despair get to me too. In terms of plot, pacing, and suspense, this just isn't the thriller genre. It's not my favorite genre to read, so it's no surprise I write more like the dreaded, leisurely pace of literary fiction. I yam what I yam, as Popeye said.
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