RE: You're Only as Good as Your Weakest Link 💪 Manifest Challenge Day 25
It's more a difficulty than a flaw, but it's that damn rage. One tap at a time, moving one millimeter of inner energy at a time, to let go of that reflexive rage and allow the energy to flow, rather than be in resistance and have all sorts of awful feelings and thoughts come from that resistance. That rage and the need to blame someone else, the need to not be at fault. It's as though I can't fathom that if it's not someone else's fault, it can also be not mine. But because of the narcissist, it's ingrained in me that if it's not someone else's fault, it's mine, the only time it's not mine, is when it's someone else's, and when it's mine, well, I won't get into that here. So I'd say those two things are what hinders the most on my good emotions and my relationships.
That brick wall looks like a good outlet for that rage though :p
@binkyprod,
Sounds like you don't fish (or meditate)?
The point is that until you can be both a participant AND observer in your life, you have given your power (and self-control) to the whims of external factoids and other people's fancies.
You can control only you, not externalities. Why give them YOUR power?
Namaste,
JaiChai
Yes, I know I tend to give my power away a lot. There are situation where I have been able to take back my power and where I don't give it away anymore. It,s when emotional flashbacks occur that I reflexively give up my power. I'm working on finding a way to retain it, even if I'm having an emotional flashback, so I can better understand the flashback too.
And no, I don't meditate enough. You may have hit the nail on the head with that one. Thank you for your kind words.
Namaste.
@binkyprod,
You are most welcome.
And thank you for taking the time to reply.
Parting Shot -
Thoughts are things. And as quantum physics is now proving, the only "real" things we can perceive.
Let all your memories complete their purpose, their mission. Only you can reveal what that mission or purpose can be.
And no. It's not still lingering around just to make you feel bad or torment you. That's not how a living universe works.
Once "it" has finished, "It" is finished and will allow you and "it" to move on...
Just saying.
Namaste,
JaiChai
Those words ring true. I heard in a recent video that the narcissist is there to expose those childhood wounds that never healed. I didn't think much of it at the time that I heard it, but lately in my EFT sessions we've been working on triggers that cause emotional flashbacks ad I thought they were all directly linked to the narcissist. Well, as the energy shifts, I find links to something that happened to me in childhood that I never healed. The narc was only there to bring those things to the surface, to my conscious mind.
And what you say makes sense to me and I feel it is linked also, somehow :) Thank you.
@binkyprod,
Glad you're putting forth the effort.
Try to enjoy the journey - no matter how many emotional coal beds you must walk on...
Namaste,
JaiChai
It can go in neverending circles if you allow