HOW I LOST MY LOVE TO LUST?

just like everyone I too had a love story.
It started on the day one of our college.
I don't believe in love at first sight till the day I saw her. wow that beauty made me fall for her.
its not a cakewalk it took me 11 months to make her love me
I got exactly what I wanted. i felt bored as days passed by.
she started caring a lot . her hugs and kisses were steroids earlier now its not even showing an impact.
I made a breakup to have peace.
once after the breakup peace became pieces.
I lost a gem.
nothing can replace her in my life.
neither the riches nor the rags.
tons of bank balance can't make out of broke.
readers you decide ? how I should be punished ?