Dud! you're just 19 and you're already further than most people in their whole lifes...
Before being in a good relation with someone you first need to be in a good relation with yourself.. doesn't matter what other think or say... just think less and feel more, you gonna find what makes you happy... follow that and on the way you gonna find love too...
Maybe my story can tell you something useful!
good luck!
https://steemit.com/life/@lavidaesunviaje/the-love-of-my-life-my-love-story-with-daniela