Broken Phone

My phone never lights up at night.
And during the day it's the same game. I watch it continuously since I asked you that question. Lately I feel myself going into a bit of depression.

I want you to hold me until I fall asleep. I don't want anything borderline I need it to be deep. Talks on the phone are my lullabies.
But I don't get that anymore and it makes me want to cry

I feel abandon like these stray cats outside my door. Although I still give the food and water and i don't ignore. You told me beautiful stories of my future with you. And I just knew we could make it and have a breakthrough

Seems like I lost the good fight. It's starts to sink in every night. The irony of it all. When your use to throwing yourself at a person then now they just watch you fall.

I got completely naked with you.
You took it all in and didn't unscrew
When I wanted to hide my flaws
Thinking you were ought to leave then I hear an applause. You took me for who I was. And gave no reason it was just because.

But old wounds can't close fast enough. And it didn't soften you up at all just made you tough. And I'm feeling you drift away lightly. And you weren't rude about it at all, Just did it politely.

I wonder at what moment did the water dry thin. I noticed it but didn't talk just held it within. We still converse but it's not the same. And I have no fingers to point because I'm the one to blame.

I just want you to know that your side of the bed is completely cold. There's no warm kisses or stories being retold. No advice being given or screams when I didn't listen. I can't look into your eyes and watch them glisten.

My mind can't stop reliving the good and the bad. I mean at one point you were going to be someone's dad. I wanted to wear white for you and say I do. But how did I end up here it's still so new.

I put down my phone to accept defeat. I know my heart is broken I can't even hear a heartbeat.