You are my life’s greatest adventure.

You were lost, I found you. I knew it was not me you needed back then but I was there. I just wanted to blanket you with my embrace, because I knew being alone isn’t easy. I was a very unlikeable person, so I switched everything just so you could see my worth. Before I even noticed it, I changed for you. We started that way. That was where our book began. You and I eventually became us. Your pain eventually became mine. My smile eventually became yours. We always told each other how no relationship is going to be easy, but we’re going fight for ours – and we did. I finally found you, my antidote.

Two years, two months, too early, too late. I was lost, I remained lost. I was ready to cover you from any pain that is to come, but nothing has prepared me from myself. If I had only knew, I would’ve shouted for you. I thought I did. I guess I should’ve shouted louder for you to hear my desperate calls. With every tear that fell down my cheeks and with every ounce of liquor that trickled down my throat I told myself how much I needed you back then. All I wanted was nothing more but to hear you talk to me. Tell me I’m going to be safe. Tell me it’s going to be okay. Blanket me with your embrace even if you’re not here because, of all the people, you should know how difficult being alone is. I went back to my older self; unscrupulous and undesirable. I am done caring what other people think. I started to rebuild my long lost wall a little higher. I lost a big part of me the moment I lost you. I wish you saw my worth when everything was still worth it. Again, I changed because of you. I came to a point where I can honestly say that I can face my problems alone – and that’s sad because I thought you and I had already became us. I thought my pain was going to be our pain. It’s sad how I became the reason for your tears. I can vividly remember desperately asking you to pull me back because I felt myself drifting away. I guess I’m just not worth fighting for.

So I guess this is it. This is where our book ends. Thank you for writing the most awesome story with me. From the very first page up to the very last, it was all worth it. I’m sorry if I had to let my weary heart rest. I’m not going to be there like how I used to. Maybe someday when we meet, we’ll smile at each other because I know how much you loved me, and I, you. But as of the moment, I’ll pull back my flag. I’ll never forget you. You still are, and will always be my life’s greatest adventure.