"I'm gone, when I find I love you" “我走了。当我发现自己喜欢你的时候”

in #love6 years ago

I'm even a person who doesn't even bother to please. A few days ago heard a girl to send a gift to one of my male friends: is a super classic wooden box
The upper layer is full of good-looking Ginkgo biloba
The lower level is a carefully selected book. In order for the gift to be sent out, the girl wants to match a suitable paper bag, and she struggled back and forth to catch several cars. On the day she was sent out, she didn't tell the boy, the other place. She came to the city without his, find the gift sent errands brother, but that little brother don't pay much attention to protection, broken bag, take a taxi and sent brother...... Until the moment the boy came out of the door of the community - her eyes behind the tree were filled with desolation. Because the boys received a gift, there was no expression. At the end of the last, all this "mind" turned into a "sorry". "Thank you very much for your heart." But I'm really sorry, I seem to have passed the moving age. I only feel a waste of time. " Actually, that gift is not a problem. It's never a gift. It's . You can't call a person who never looked up at you. Remember your heart.

  I'm such a strange man. Other people like a person, hate to rush forward and rushed, but I seem to be an ostrich...

when I find myself as if I like a person, I will take the initiative to stay away from him.

not think you are mature, but I love the fear of being discovered, found my heart panic, found I was so clingy and worry about personal gains and losses. In particular, I found that I was a little too special to him... I'm afraid he's scared by the way I like him, I'm afraid he likes the way I don't like him. I hate the feeling that my fate is totally negated by others. perhaps, the so-called growth is the first to discover that you are a monster,
And then accept it comfortably,
Then the default everyone left, finally unexpectedly also side for their own armed with the world that pleased with oneself.

me now, love a person, in determining the relationship before, would not be so silly, carefully prepared a gift for him, run a lot of places. Because I gradually discovered that...

"maybe the people you face are too old for them."

I don't love yourself,

maybe. One day in the future, I will suddenly say like you . I'm going to turn off and go. I mean, I'm not going to be with you. But can you... If you can "see through my apathy", "kiss my cowardice", don't hesitate to catch up with me,

.

hugged me and said I had found me at last. "thought true love, not just a legend."

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我甚至是个连自己都懒得讨好的人。前几天听到一个女孩子,给我的一个男性朋友送礼物:· 是一个超古典的木盒子
· 上层装满了好看的银杏叶
· 下层是一本精心挑选的书为了让这个礼物被送出的时候,不失大气,女孩子想搭配一个适合的纸袋,都费劲来来回回打车找了个好几个商场。送出的那天,她没告诉这个男生,异地。她擅自来到他的城市,找了跑腿小哥送出这份礼物,但又担心小哥不太注意保护,弄坏了纸袋,就打车和小哥一起送……直到见到男生从小区门口出来的那一刻——她躲在树背后的眼神,写满了落寞。因为男生接到礼物,完全没有一丝表情。最后的最后,这一切「心意」,都化成了一句「对不起」。“很谢谢你的用心。但真的对不起,我好像过了那个为这些感动的年纪了,我只感到浪费时间。”其实那份礼物没有任何问题,有问题的,从来都不是礼物,而是你无法叫一个从来没抬头看过你一眼的人,记得你心脏的模样。

 我就是这样一个奇怪的人。别人喜欢一个人,恨不得奋力往前冲啊冲的,但我好像是属鸵鸟的……

当我发现自己好像喜欢上一个人的时候,我会先主动远离他。

倒不是觉得自己有多成熟,只是我害怕被喜欢的人发现,发现我内心的惊恐,发现我是那么的粘人以及,患得患失。特别是,发现我对他有点太过特别了……我怕他 被我喜欢他的样子吓到,我怕他 喜欢我不喜欢他的样子。我讨厌那种,自己的命运被别人全盘否定的感觉。或许,所谓成长——就是先发现自己是个怪物、
然后心安理得地接受、
再默认所有人都离开了、最后竟还为自己独闯天下的那一面,沾沾自喜。

我啊,现在喜欢一个人,在确定关系前,再也不会那么傻里傻气的,精心为他准备一个礼物,跑很多地方了。因为我渐渐发现……

“可能你面对的人,早就过了会为这些感动的年纪。”

我不喜欢自讨没趣,

也许呢。未来某天,我会突然大声说句喜欢你。我会说完就掉头就走,意思是,我不是非要和你在一起的。但你能不能…能不能「看穿我的冷漠」,「亲吻我的怯懦」,就毫不迟疑地带上款款温柔追上我,

拥抱我,说终于找到了我。“还以为真爱,不止是一个传说。”

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