Love & Sadness, Friendship and Happiness

Yesterday I spent the whole afternoon with my good old friend Arianne @themetanoist while visiting Fort Lauderdale. It had been almost 3 months since we had seen each other, once we finished our romantic relationship. We had such a beautiful magical partnership last year, travelling the world, doing art and spiritually learning from each other. But after a while we both knew that there was a greater chance for growth if we went our separate ways.

That was one of the most difficult things I’ve done in my life, as it brought me so much pain and suffering. I went through much darkness in my month teaching in Vienna (in November), but then it gave me the chance to identify n externalize my shadow, so that it could lose its control over me.

Then in Peru the following month (December) it was all about purging much of that darkness, pain and sadness. I had to let go, surrender and release. I had to learn to Love a woman without having to own her. I also had to learn to Love myself above anybody else. To know that all of the Love I need is in my own heart, and women should just reflect that self love and security. I wanted to feel complete by myself, and I feel I achieved it by now. The process was a daily struggle, with many lessons. Some days I’d come on top, other days I’d be defeated. But I managed to learn so much from the experience, and find a chill peace beneath the ups n downs.

I feel I’m a better person cause of this suffering I went through. Arianne as well, I’ve seen her grow and blossom so much, both as a person, and in her art. She is so spiritually inspiring to me and a precious gem to admire. She is now in a position where she has so many options to manifest in her life; art to create, trips to do, people to meet, hearts to heal, destiny to fulfil. I am so proud of her, and still Love her So much, but that love we have for each other allows us to set us free to follow our own paths to self-realization. So yes, yesterday was so blessed for me. We hanged out like the old days, thanked each other and healed any issues that might of come up in our months apart. We will be friends and lovers forever, past this lifetime, and that makes me happy. #bff @ Wilton Manors, Florida