Without You

You can call it a relationship
I'll just call it a relationsh*t
I gave love and you spit in my face
I wish we could switch place and taste my pain
I walk alone in the rain whie you walk with no stain
I keep rotting in the brain and you remain with joy
Thing's now for me ain't the same
Thought you would make the right moves, what a shame
I spoiled you like a queen
Me and you were supposed to be a team
Now it just seems like you never loved me
I gave my all and you gave nothing
I fall into darkness and you got emptiness
I can't believe you could be so heartless
I hate you for all this anger
I would treat you like a stranger if I saw you begging on a street conor
You live by no Pride, Respect or Honor
I bought you what you needed and wanted
You left my dreams hunted
I fought for our love and you never shoved for a better life
You never thought twice about me
I thought about you for everything
If we were to marry I would buy you a gold diamond ring
The you way you betrayed had left me with a sting
I had loyalty and now people only notice me as that fool that was used like a tool
You treated me with fake passion
Without you my soul is still crashing while you act like nothing happened
Without you my heart fell apart while you act like it never had a good start
Without you I'm all alone while you go out and bone every new guy
Without you I'm destroyed and you just toyed with my heart
I don't want to start thinking of you
But everytime I do I turn blue
I get so depressed and you did me wrong and confessed
I don't feel so blessed cause it caused a mess in my skull
Only one thing to do was get your GED only thing you did was enroll
It hurt to see you wouldn't get it not even for me so I had to go
Leaving wasn't easy but you made it sound like I did it so simple
People said I can't help someone who couldn't help themself
I guess they were right cause it caused only harm to self and nothing left
I wonder if I cross your mind like you cross mine
I apologize to my family
You tried to warn me and I was too deaf to hear
You told me a blind man with no fear can lead to a near death
I didint know love can be so cruel
I wish we never met at the park around the school around two when I wanted you and for some reason still do
Without you I am so deprive but you still act act all jolly and alive
Without I can't arrive with a strive but you still managed to survive
Without you I'm hurt knowing you love another guy
I would try to push you to better your future
I didint know your evil nature
I once bought you gifts for your birthday do you remember for every Holliday too
You never not once got me any by the way but I kept my cool
I was a fool to stay with you for so long
Didint know you were playing me all along
You spread a lie to make me out to be the bad guy
I should have never gave you a try
My soul is starting to fry as I wonder why my emotions are making me remember what I want to forget
I wake up in the middle of the night in sweat
Knowing you aren't here to make me feel better for the pain I felt
I melt in my sorrow for the hate I now have delt with
You don't care cause you won't be back not today or tomorrow and without you I'm just gonna keep pushing even if it's killing me inside
Just know through all my pain I tired to help the most yet I never came close to reaching your heart
Go on, go now and start to live a life without me
Without me I'm sure you'll be more happy and I'll be just miserable
Without me I'm sure you'll be less snappy you can pretend I don't exist like Invisible
Without me I'm sure you'll loose memory and I'll be a blurry image
Without me I'm sure you'll miss my money cause to you I was nobody
Without me around you might sleep sound free of me on your back
Your G.E.D. is all that I wanted to get you
As much as I dislike you I still love you when I shouldn't

@aunglat