VII
A letter to my love.
Three years ago, as we were driving down the bridge and you told me you love me in your own sweet way, it sent shivers down my spine because it was just surreal yet so real; and I kept wondering how long the magic would last. Now look at us, fast forward three years - so much has changed and I love you more than ever. Sadly I no longer have to wonder how long this would last, because I know it’s about to end in a matter of weeks or days only God knows and I leave it in His hands.
If I’d done a single thing differently in my life, I probably never would have met you. So I am grateful on the daily, for all the good and the bad; for the struggle and the triumph - for all the little things that made me who I am today, because you loved every single part of me... and that’s probably one of the things I am grateful for the most. Your love.
You know, for almost two years now we have driven the same road home together almost everyday but I just realized I still have not memorized the routes we take. I either remember the tunnel after Dubai Garden Glow or the petrol station with Wendy’s in it. I also realized this was because
A. I look at you almost all the way through the trip or;
B. when I am upset, I look away out the window but in my mind I’m still thinking of you driving quietly and wondering when you will take my hand.
I think I have told you so many times in many ways how thankful I am for having you. I look at you everyday and wonder what good I must have done in this world to deserve to be loved by such an amazing person.
I love you.
I love you so very much that I don’t think any word would suffice to describe the kind of love my heart has for you.
It breaks me to think this is the last time I‘d wake up to 21st of January and look forward to seeing you at the end of the day. Come to think of it, I ache for each day that I would open my eyes to a life without you.
I wish I’d get to meet you in another life at the right place, at the right time - when all is right in the world and I would never have to face a single day with the fear of losing you and not even having the right of fighting to keep you.
I will always love you and my soul will always long for you.
But let there be space in your togetherness and let the winds of the heavens dance between your souls -Khalil Gibran