living in the now or living for when? just hodl life and you might miss it!

in living •  2 months ago  (edited)

my internal esp has always given me clues, from health, decision making and just gut instinct when my brain has decided to check out for the day/week (months?) I can always rely on those little gut bacteria fauna butterflies to wake up and get me to check in on myself — where you at, what you doing, what’s the parts you missing, why are you over-evaluating, judging even.

You can really get tied up in the now, just living, stepping through each day, waiting for the next delivery on a idea you want to work on or food that you can stack in the fridge as some kind of tepid reward for making it through the day, it can all become so very clinical and sharp — I have to fight for the contrast of life otherwise the grey scales start to fall in and everything becomes 8-bit and long load times. Ain’t nobody got time for long fucking load times when it comes to experience and reality these days.

while I’m all for saving, holding, waiting for the big things in life to come about I also know the times when I’ve had zero control over any of those things have been the moments I’ve not questioned and the universe has always delivered the qualities that I’ve needed to either confront the situation head on or at least mitigate my fabricated concerns — it’s like I do my best work when I’m stressed out, it fucking blows.

maybe it’s an age thing but relationships, people, food, environments that I frequent, path ways I walk are now the basis for the end game playback show reel and I certainly don’t want that to be two and a half minutes or whatever it might be of me sitting in a fucking chair at my computer (I’m sure we all feel that way)

It’s part of the reason that I keep turning up each day re-inventing places and spaces for us to be able to get back on track with that, I’ve got some funds I’m about to put back into mobility, into media making on the go, to get back to the things I love to do which is making and capturing and sharing with purity of thought without distraction.

While time is precious also the clarity of the mind is paramount too, I’ve got no time for fragmentation, dilution and cliche following tokenomics, it’s just the same shit with a different spokesperson shouting ‘value, get ya value’ from a rooftop somewhere, don’t get me wrong, it’s the utopian distributed decentralised ideals I always hoped upon but it’s also some of the middlemen gassed up round two fuckboys from before — I’m not interested in hearing your spin on things, it’s just distraction economy.

It’s a settling feelings knowing yourself, why you react and act like you do, when you have little universe events that trigger a reality landslide and the ‘oh shit, that, ok that’s why’ kinda mood. I forget that stuff, I get settled, i’m happy in my space and then I look up and two fucking years just blipped by, take my daughter for instance, teenager next year, nuts!

It’s always time for action and the universe is always ready for change, the very fabric of the universe is increasing in speed as we get pulled towards it faster and faster!

Thankful for all the edges.

pinterest epic wins pinboard → brand advocate for nokia, 1000heads, verisign → won vloggie for node666 (san fran 2006) → television for time team history hunters 1999 → sold to evan williams in april 2011 → went to phil campbell, alabama to help raise money after tornado (was on sky news, bbc news)→ CNN for sxsw 2013 about austin sxsw → video chat with robert scoblemusic video can you spot me?

__humble me along
( It never rains when you want it too )

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