"In a world with so much hatred everyone should be allowed to love." -Anonymous
Hola there!, Since I have nothing to post cause I don't have the will to write so for now I will just post my past dagli. Dagli is a short story with a twist. My theme for this is LGBT. (Warning).
Simula nang makita kita nagbago na ako, natutong ngumiti ng madaming beses sa isang araw, naging mas masipag at natutong manligaw. Di ko akalain na may ganito pala akong side at mas nagulat ako na katulad mo pala ang type ko. Nakakahinayang man para sa pamilya, kaibigan at sa mga naging boyfriend ko pero mas naging masaya ako sa piling mo.
Sa pagkalipas ng ilang taon, nagkalakas loob ako at humarap sayo ng buong tapang. Tinawag kita at nung tumingin ka sa mga mata ko kinabahan ako na parang ayoko ng sabihin sayo. Ngunit sa kabila ng kaba at panginginig ng kamay ko alam kong sa bandang huli ayoko paring magsisi kaya sinabi ko sayo ang lahat ng totoo. Hindi lamang ang matagal ko nang nararamdaman sayo kundi ang sarili ko ring matagal na tinatago. Oo, mahal kita Reon kahit na parehas tayo ng kasarian at dahil sayo nahanap ko ang sarili ko at naiharap sa tao ang tunay na ako. Walang ginawa ang pamilya ko para baguhin ako at pangaralan kundi tinangap nila ako ng napakalawak na mga bisig at pusong mapagmahal. Tangap nila na ako ay bisexual at nagmamahal ng kahit ano tao kapaman.
The minute I have step in my teen years my parents throw me in a military to serve the country. However when training comes my knees started to tremble and my mind doesn't work and slowly fear would consume me. I am a religious person and from the mere thought of killing a bug would make me felt so guilty. I believe in the words of God I have once serve him as a Christian and what I really want is to be a father in the church and spread the saying of the God. Yet I find myself trapped in this demonic training where I was learned to hold a shotgun and start looking at my target to ready for aim.
I am anxious and reckless and don't really know what I am doing so I started to run away from this military base and escape. I told my parents that I can't do it because I don't want to kill any human being. They have nothing to do but to let me be. Although I still felt the gap with my family and I know deep inside they are very disappointed on me. So I started to show them that what I truly wanted to do and that is to serve God. I had saw the light and finally settled down but what makes it different is that I have also found my real self by serving the Lord. I hate to admit it. People might say it is an insult to God but I have heard a voice in my heart to fight and show who I really am.
I am a people of the Lord, I believe in his words and I am a coward military guy who ends up to be a gay in the midst of this sacred world I am living.
"No matter what you do, always remember to be who you are. Life Gets Better That way (LGBT)."
Roxy signing off