@illestbambi,
You are young with lot's of time to find your life's vision. I know it can hurt in the moment, but it is just part of learning.

Surely you have seen the commercials of Michael Jorden and how many game winning shots he missed? (hmm, maybe you are too young for those) Anyway, my point is life and success do not come for most of us in 6 months even when we try really hard. We call that practice.

Maybe try a little balance, I've listened to you speak and I know you are smart and that you have been trying. Again, that is practice.

Consider adjusting your time frame and expectations and give yourself a break, all the people living the crypto dream probably had some failures first.

Don't give up.

PS. I understand a bit what it feels like to be frustrated and to question yourself, just try to keep some prespective.