You are amazing to be able to talk yourself through this time... I wasn't sure about my fears or what to expect after that accident. I've had other equally traumatic events in my life with a 20-year abusive marriage, somehow you sequester those thoughts and feelings in a safe place during a marriage like that. But a car accident of that caliber that you experienced I can witness it in my mind's eye and I just can't imagine what it would be like to be in it. Take care, beautiful.