Decisions: Ideas of a Better Future
On occasion, especially as of late in attempts to become financially established, I've found myself stuck in a loop after a decision leads to an undesirable outcome. Stuck in a funk.
"If I had just done this then I would have been set. If I just did that, I would finally be out of debt."
Never one to think about money often since being able to pay the bills and keep a roof over my head, especially after growing up seeing money being the cause of nearly all arguments, but ideas of a life not just going through the meat grinder have crept up lately.
Thoughts of being able to provide and take care of my loved ones.
Thoughts of financial success resulting in a means to give back.
Thoughts of doing even a fraction of what has been done for me and paying back the parents who gave everything they could while having nothing in hopes of a better life for me.
The security found in an office job has only led to new problems and desires pushing me towards investing what little bit I've managed to save. I remember one bad decision after trading options for some time led from great gains to losing everything.
I told my mother "I was doing so well. I could have taken care of everyone. I made a bad decision out of greed and lost it all."
She smiled and said "It wasn't meant to be. There will be other opportunities. You're going to be miserable if you keep obsessing over it."
It wasn't meant to be. Deterministic, but for some reason I find comfort those words.
I'm thankful for the perspective gained from growing up under parents who came from nothing only to slave away for a lifetime to provide for others. I'm thankful to bare witness to unrelenting effort in the face of endless setbacks. It taught me to care less about where I am, or where the finish line is, but rather my direction. Regardless of the circumstances, let every decision you make lead you forward.
Regardless of whatever happens, be it rotting under florescent tubes in a cubicle to the end of time or otherwise, I'm grateful for my problems.
Whatever happens, happens.
About damn time you posted something, ya bastard!
Your life has just started dude. When I was your age, you saw where I was in life. In a $250/month shithole apartment with one working plug-in in the hood. No stove. No fridge. No lights. Just a bathtub and some screen windows.
You're just getting started, man. Just look at previous decisions as learning opportunities, that's what I do at least.
YOU GOT THIS.
That's a strong article you have here man!
Anyway.. Wouldn't it be too boring to achieve anything without any obstacles on your path??
Can't feel real satisfaction from reaching the goal without working your ass hard. :d
Thanks, man!
Absolutely. If one had complete power/control over the game, I imagine they would become quite bored and begin creating difficulties. The treasure is much more satisfying having slain the dragon.
Just cause you're going to rot in the cube for now, doesn't mean it'll be that way forever JP!
Definitely not forever! I'll do my best to appreciate it for what it is for the time being as I move towards better opportunities.
If there were not problems, there would not be solutions:)
Oh, how many of these stories can I tell in my 49 years on this planet. Too many, and yes, looking back is a waste of precious time and energy. Hard not to. But, sigh you move forward.
You just have to be strong and believe in yourself
They say that life happens while you are busy making other plans.
I was happy where I was. The problem with that way of thinking is I was not happy with where it left me.
I did not think about where I needed to move towards but have grown from there. I believe that G-D is in charge, but he gives us options. We just have to look and reach out for the opportunities that are there and it can happen with just a simple change in perspective. Thanks.