So negative. You were gifted and you want give it back because it isn’t in the amount you wanted? - Is my interpretation correct? (Of course, I know the self-sabotage game because I do it to myslef like ALL time. So, I get it. You could say thanks and sit with that.)

You really like this one adjective to describe ALL of who you are, which in fact is only one of the many other adjectives one can use to describe one’s self.

That question wasn’t meant for you to answer here. It is something you are going to have to deal with in order to get the women you want to attract. I’m not saying anyone has to become buddy buddies with their parents or even talk to them. What I am saying is those mommy and daddy issues need to be resolved or the cycle of trauma will contiue.