Testament

As I sit here thinking to myself
I'm taken to a dusty bible
Laying on a crooked shelf

My faith wasn't there
For the man upstairs
How could it be after all he's done
Was he just punishing me
Or just having some fun
With my life, my soul

I was slowly digging myself a hole
When all of a sudden it became a crater
How could I have done this
It must've been someone greater than I

Before I knew it there were 4, 5, six
People affected by me
I can't believe my naivety
Nearly cost me the love of my family

Maybe it was loneliness
Desperation of sadness
That drove me to live through these
Times of madness

Back then temptation
From the man below
Sent me crashing through my mirror's window
Taking over my mind, body and soul

But now I'm high on life
My heart is full of gladness
And I will never inflict sadness
On the ones who were there for me

I realize now you were testing my life force
You took me to the edge
And allowed me to repent

I ask you now to forgive me father
I guess I'll hear your judgement
When I reach the end
And maybe, just maybe
You'll consider me a friend

This is one of many poems I wrote over 10 years ago and have only recently come back to so thought I would share to see people's feedback as I start to get back into the swing of things. Thanks for reading.