DIREFUL ATTRACTION
It’s been several months since I last saw Kylie, and now here I am, with just a door separating us. Anxiously overwhelmed with anticipation of the surprised look that would frame her face upon seeing me. Man! I’ve missed her so much since I left.
Opening the door, I step into the familiar space of her room. The moonlight cast a dim look in the room, as the cherry tree sway to the frantic beating of my heart.
I’ve never hurt for a girl like this before, not for a girl I would give the world to, but heck, I’ve never felt this way before. The ache right were my heart is drains all the joy in me. The bouquet of flower held behind me falls gently to my feet, as I absorbed the heartbreaking view from where I stood. I have no Idea how long I stood there, but I guess it was long enough to comprehend situations.
‘Kylie..’ I whispered in a gut wrenching voice, as I watched her sigh softly in her sleep, arms and legs tangled with another set of legs lying beside her.
Taking a step behind, I hurriedly shut the door, quite noisily than I intended to, as I dashed out of the apartment. After walking a few blocks to were my car was parked, I finally gave into the grief that has being steadily building up inside me. Without putting up a fight, I let my thoughts wander, till the jarring sounds of my phone ringing, brought me back to reality, disrupting my chain of thoughts.
Digging into my jacket pocket I brought out the phone, caller ID reading Kylie. After a couple more rings, I reluctantly answered the call.
‘Hello Nate, where are you? It’ not what you think you saw that is…’ she tried explaining.
Once again, I zoned out of the present. My thoughts everywhere but nowhere, just staring blankly at the far off stars. I think I understand, life isn’t a TV show, you don’t always get the girl. I guess I should have listened more, for the love I thought existed wasn’t love at all. It wasn’t to her as it was to me, the promises, laughter, dreams, and aspirations. I think I now understand the reason she may have loved me this much, it all makes sense now. With the money you never truly know if the attractions are real or come with a price tag. If it was indeed the money, why wasn’t it enough for us to be together? How much I would have done for her.
‘Nate, where are you?’ The shrillness of her demanding voice jerked me back to reality. With a weak attempt create a nonchalant charade, I replied…
‘Oh I didn’t tell you? With all that’s been going on with you, and your new lover, I must have forgotten to say, what I do is no longer any of your business.’
With that said, I turned off my phone, pushed myself off the sidewalk, without a glance behind, I slammed my car door shut. It’s time to heal and kiss the past goodbye. I’m on my own.